Another humungous amount of sugar consumed today. No matter, I guess.
I wouldn't be where I am today, in the frame of mind I am in, one of survival and courage, if not for my friends. Lately my friends have faced death of relatives, depression and despair but also happiness. I love to hear the stories of happiness because they make me feel good about life. The bad stuff is harder to hear because I am so physically far away that I know I can't support them how I would like to. If nothing else I would like to hug my friends and in the years since I have left there have been many reasons to hug them for both good and bad reasons. But whatever news I am being given I would just wish to be there. Tonight is one of those nights but for positive reasons. My friend has started a new relationship and has all the possibilities of a bright future. I'm wishing him well tonight as he as wished me well on so many occassions. And then I felt sad as I realised the barrier that will now be between us. It's inevitable and natural that when you are in a relationship with someone they are your priority but they also take your time. So there will be no more late night heart to hearts with someone that I trust. He wont have the time and his girlfriend may not appreciate it. For myself a bit of sadness but for him a whole world of happiness. I choose his happiness every time.
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